9.20.1997

I've been doing a balancing act between two companies for the past few weeks. I got my job back at TDS with my former supervisor who is a really cool lady. Mornings I work on smart weapons there, evenings I'm doing battle with test instruments and idiot coworkers at Bill and Dave's. TDS has been hurting for qualified people especially bad this past year so when I asked if I could come back on dayshift they were quick to snag me. All they had to do was reactivate my DoD clearance. That only took a couple of weeks, instead of the months it takes to get one when you've never been cleared before. Working both jobs has been tough but it has kept me out of the house and away from Jennifer. It's also allowed me to make fat stacks of cash so I can afford moving someplace else. I'm tired every day. When I finally get to go home at night I count up the hours I've been on my feet. It's generally been in the neighborhood of 17 to 18 hours each day.

Some evenings I come home to find Jennifer sitting on the livingroom couch snug up against this guy from her work. They ususally look guilty as sin when I walk through the front door. I'm certain Jennifer made a point to have him there just to rub things in and make me feel worse. She's the queen of manipulation. There's nothing I can do about it, the first night I came home and found them together I asked them what they were doing and Jennifer sarcastically told me they were just "watching a movie." Then they both laughed at me. I wanted to choke the life out of her, and slug the guy sitting next to her. What good would it have done? I more than likely would have been taking a ride in the back of a police car to jail and maybe even lost a fight. It burned me up inside thinking about it, but I let it go. The other thing Jennifer has been doing to torture me is to make sure I see her looking good. Lately she's been doing all the things I asked her to do over the past couple of years, but refused to. She's been wearing alot of makeup and putting on tight tops that really show off her tits. And she's been wearing tight short skirts. Bitch.

With any luck I will be back in at B Street with Senor 23 and Leaky Pete by next week. Senor 23 had a vacant room come up at the B Street house and I asked him to save it for me. He's on a trip to Colorado Springs right now but as soon as he arrives back in town he will hand off some keys. I got to get out of here, the sooner the better. I wonder if I'll get my old room back.