2.19.1995

Jennifer is at work and I'm sitting at home drinking one of her leftover beers from last night. It's a Moosehead. It's not that great, but it's free so I shouldn't complain.

I turned 24 on Tuesday. Nothing special happened on my birthday, in fact it was downright dull. I got stuck at work and it was just another day. Saturday was more of a day for celebrating. Jennifer had it all planned. We stayed in bed all day and had sex. We didn't do anything else. She started to turn me on to being blindfolded while she did different things to me, and I got to douse her in oil. Looking back on it all now I think that was one of the most erotic experiences of my life. Trouble is those sorts of intimate times need to happen between the both of us more often. This once a month crap is getting old fast. I have a bad feeling the only reason why she was being so accomodating all of a sudden was just because of my birthday.

Saturday night after we were all sore and raw, she took me out to dinner and a movie. Dinner was okay but the movie was pure garbage. Another one of these retro-1970s films based off of a TV show I hated. I absolutely hate 70s stuff. Most of the film made me wince in my seat and I was fidgety. I wanted to get it overwith and go do something else. Anything else. Jennifer's sister Aubrey and her boyfriend Darren were there with us for the show. Afterward Jennifer and I went home and watched some porn she rented. Porn was a much better way to end the evening.

Jennifer has been putting me under alot of pressure to move in with her. She's also brought up marriage a few times. Because our sex life together has been so weak I have a gut feeling things will turn out bad. I have been thinking about it alot and at a minimum I think I should at least live with her for a while before I even consider for a second marrying this woman. It could be a disaster.