11.15.1994

Ricky Rockanova lost his latest job again. He got hired on a month ago over at Compumotor. They offered me a chance at employment there about the same time I got my full time permanent job at TDS so I turned Compumotor down. I was glad to do it. I don't like their hiring procedures. They're pretty fucked. First you come in as an external temporary worker, slave away for months and go through a series of interviews again for the position you've already got. Then they lay you off for a week to two weeks while they decide if they want to offer you a permanent position. That's way too much hassle for me, man.

I feel pretty sorry for Ricky because he doesn't understand that the root of all his problems is his mouth. What he says to people and how he chooses to say it will be his undoing. The other night when he told me he had been tossed out of Compumotor I tried to tell him that he is his own worst enemy. He completely dismissed it. So be it. I tried to warn him. I'm looking into getting him a job at TDS right now. He does have good skills I know they would find useful, and they are still looking for people like mad. I just hope he can keep his mouth shut long enough to get in the door.

I spent last night with Jennifer over at her place. She didn't sleep hardly at all because of all the coffee she drank when we went out to dinner. I had a bad feeling in the back of my mind she didn't sleep well because I was there with her. Sometimes she doesn't sleep well when I'm around. It bothers me. I'm insecure about our relationship for the same old reasons just like back in high school when we first met. She's always been really weird about sex. I want her to have as much fun with me as I do with her, but she's kinda frigid and acts like she can't be bothered with it. Most of the time I have to pester her into it and that's junk. I don't want to put up with a sex life like this for very long. Maybe I lose her again.